【The Three Types of Persons 道次引导】 I want to cultivate, cultivating myself 我要修行，修我自己
【THE THREE TYPES OF PERSONS】- I want to cultivate, cultivating myself
Up to this point, I also remember one thing. Back in those days, my teacher often scolded me. Sigh, I am truly grateful now, I can’t thank him enough! I might as well share the lecture from my teacher here: at that time, I often thought that I was a practitioner, always felt that I don’t want to do this, don’t want to do that, I am here to meditate in the monastery. And I always thought that I gave up everything to come here to meditate! My teacher said: “You meditate! If you want to meditate and be locked up in the mountain retreat, why do you come here for room and board from me? Am I indebted to you?” I heard that and, at that time, my thought was, why are people here not compassionate? “Love and compassion! Aren’t you here to learn from Buddha? You need compassion, yet I am just such an ordinary being!” At that time, I could not understand, just couldn’t comprehend it. Now, I have gradually recognized it. Certainly, we feel “I want to meditate!” Well, while cultivating, whom are you cultivating? You are cultivating yourself. If you have to improve yourself, why do you come to my place and eat my food? This is absolutely true! Moreover, I took it for granted to eat monastic food. Such as, after all the monastics finish their work, they have to take care of you. Why do they forsake their own meditation and come to help you? I contemplated it for a while: that is right! If I only care about myself, meditation retreat is the right thing to do! If everyone just minds one’s own business, why should I cook for you? Why should I do it for you?
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33A 26’41”Vol 5 of Master Jih-Chang’s Discourse P16 LL5
English Lamrim Vol 1 P131
日常师父法语📡33A 26’41”手抄稿第5册P16 LL5
道次引导 : 我要修行，修我自己
说到这个地方，我也想起一件事情，那个当年我的老师常常骂我的，唉，我现在真是感激不尽，感激不尽！我不妨把我老师对我的教训在这个地方：我那时候常常自己觉得我是一个修行人，总觉得这个也不愿意做，那个也不愿意做，我来修行的，然后自己总觉得我放掉了一切跑来修行！我老师说：“你修行！你要修行，你关在山里面，你为什么跑到我这里来吃我这东西啊？住我这个房子啊？我欠你的啊！”我听了，当时听了半天，觉得这些人怎么好像不慈悲呀？“慈悲、慈悲！你不是要学佛吗？要你慈悲啊，我就是个凡夫！”当时一直不懂这个话，一直不懂话，这个话一直不懂，现在慢慢地了解了。 的的确确地，而我们自己觉得：我要修行！欸，你要修行，修谁呀？修你自己，要修你自己，你为什么跑到我这地方，还要吃我的东西啊？这个千真万确事实啊！然后还觉得好像顺理成章该吃的，好像他做完了以后要养你这个样的。他为什么不会修行，他要来帮你忙？我想了半天：没有错啊！单单如果只管我自己的话，很正确嘛！大家只管自己的话，为什么我要烧了饭给你吃？为什么我要做了这个东西给你呀？