【Relying on the Teacher 依师】Have you been fair to yourself? 对得起你自己吗？

【RELYING ON THE TEACHER】- Have you been fair to yourself?

We have to recognize that, from beginningless time, we are in the midst of contaminated emotion. After all, for the most part, we are endowed with virtuous roots and, thus, willing to forsake worldly enjoyment to enter the Buddha door [as a monastic]. At least the recognition in our minds should be: what am I seeking here? Think it over, is this right? In the case of forsaking worldly things yet coming here still expecting good food, warm clothing, then why are you here? Thus, I am always indebted to my teacher back then, he usually would not yell, but sometimes he would! However, he often would say, “So and so! You come here with this attitude, are you being fair to yourself? Is this just the purpose for you to come here?” With just these two statements, [he] often would remind me and, up to now, I am still immensely benefited by it.

SOURCE 来源 :

16A 03’08” Vol 2 of Master Jih-Chang’s Discourse P253 L3
English Lamrim Vol 1 P75

日常师父法语 16A 03’08” 手抄稿第2册P253 L3

依师 : 对得起你自己吗？

我们必须要了解，我们无始以来都是在情染当中，我们总算宿生有善根，愿意放弃掉世俗的享受，跑到佛门当中来，内心当中至少应该认识，我到这里求的是什么。想想看，对不对？假定说抛弃了世俗的这种东西，居然跑到这个地方来，还要求得吃得好、穿得暖，你来干什么啊？所以我一直感激我当年的老师，我老师平常不会这么大声地吼，有时候也会呀！可是他经常提起的，会说一句话：“某人啊！你这样来，对得起你自己吗？你来的目的，就是这样吗？”就这么两句话，常常跟我说，我到现在这两句话，一直受用不尽，所以我这个地方特别地说一下。