【The Meditation Session – Actual Session - how to sustain meditation in general 】- your mind has not been under your control

【The purpose of this is as follows. From beginningless time you have been under the control of your mind; your mind has not been under your control. 】

Because what happens to our latent propensity from beginningless time? This mind of ours, the aspiration of ours – “controlled by the mind” – this mind is our conscious mind, this is what we should know. Our minds are like a frisky monkey or cantering horse. It is the conscious mind that is circling in this cyclic existence, from the beginningless time it is “in control” – it has its own free will. When it wants to sleep, you try but just can’t wake it up, just can’t. Then when it is time to go to bed, you want it to sleep, but it won’t. At that time, you suffer, too. Now that you know you shouldn’t be greedy, alas! It is out of control; to direct it not to get angry, it won’t work. However, this happens to us often. Therefore, from beginningless time, we are controlled by this mind. You want it to listen to you, to chant Buddha’s name but it won’t, to practice Zen but it can’t, to calm down but it won’t. Thus, “your mind has not been under your control,” and you cannot be in charge. This is our flaw, obviously [we] are not in control yet we think that we are. What is this “I”? It means being in control - I can be in control! Alas, how pitiful!

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24A 12’35” Vol 3 of Master Jih-Chang’s Discourse P262 L1
English Lamrim Vol 1 P99

日常师父法语📡24A 12’35”手抄稿第3册P262 L1

修持轨理 正行 - 总共修法 : 心不为自所自在

【盖从无始，自为心所自在，心则不为自所自在。】

因为我们无始以来的习性，为什么啊？我们这个心，我们这个希望的，“为心”，这个心就是我们的识心，要了解就是我们的识心。我们说心猿意马的心，就是我们流转生死那识心，无始以来都是这个东西“自在”，它要怎么办就怎么办。它要睡觉了，你要它提也提不起，就是提不起；到那个说要睡觉的时候，你要它该睡觉，它又睡不着，那时候你又苦恼。你说现在晓得了不要贪，哎呀！它就是挡不住；叫它不要发脾气嘛，它又不行，我们偏偏平常就是，就是都在这个时候。所以我们为这个无始以来为这个识心所自在，你要想它听你招呼，说要念佛它念不起来，要它参禅它参不起来，要它定它定不下来；所以说“心不为自所自在”，你自己做不了主。这我们颠倒，这个明明自己做不了主，偏偏我们说做得了主。“我”是什么啊？主宰义，我就是能主宰的嘛！唉，说起来真可怜哪！