【Faults of not relying on the Teacher】- not to treat oneself as a patient

On the positive side, I began by staying in the Fu-yan Abode. Later, because they were establishing a school, so I moved to Tong-jing Bodhi Abode (同净兰若). At that time, [I was] honored to be escorted there in person by a Dharma master. So this Dharma master told Venerable Ren, “Venerable ! This person is pretty good, other than he is somewhat frail.” It was very kind of Venerable Ren to think much of me, so I stayed there for the first night. In the morning at breakfast, Venerable Ren said, “It seems your health does not look very good, you have to take care!” I replied: “Venerable! Please do not treat me like a patient, I am not willing to see myself as a patient !” Venerable Ren really took this in. The reason that I was able to follow him for years..I am much indebted to his kindness. There were two major reasons for this. One of them I have told you before, and the other one is this reply of mine. Deep down inside, I truly felt that I should not treat myself as a patient and I never had.

SOURCE 来源 :

21B 26’47” Vol 3 of Master Jih-Chang’s Discourse P174 LL2
English Lamrim Vol 1 P90

日常师父法语📡21B 26’47” 手抄稿第3册P174 LL2

未依过患 : 不把自己看成病人

我从好的方面去说，我刚开始的时候，住在福严精舍，那么后来，福严精舍因为办学，我就到同净兰若。那时候还承某法师亲自送我去，那么某法师就给仁法师讲，说：[法师啊！这个人很不错的，不过他身体就比较差一点。]那么承蒙仁法师也看得起，所以第一天晚上住在那儿，第二天早晨吃早饭的时候，仁法师就说，说身体好像不大好，你自己小心啊！我就跟仁法师说：[法师啊！你不要把我看成病人，我可不愿意把自己看成病人！]仁法师很听得进这句话。我以后所以能跟他多少年，始终现在有这样的一个，承蒙他摄受的，当时有两个大原因，一个原因我跟你们说过了，一个就是我这句话。我心里的确是这样，我一直觉得不能把自己看成病人，从不把自己看成病人。